Saturday, October 30, 2010

Ladder to the Top

A friend of mine has gained a huge success in the last couple of days. A success that, while not officially completed yet, is one of those that makes me sort of hate her, as it's a goal that we both have, and she beat me to.

Ali and I get along quite well, and she's well on the way to becoming my best friend, that's for sure. We work together, write together, hang out together...The only thing we're not doing is sleeping together. (Though...Hubba-hubba...)

When one of us is whooping the other at work, we make fun. We cuss one another, and use friendly, healthy competition to make ourselves better. It's how you grow, and given that we do care about each other as much as we do, there's no harm in a little friendly snipping, if it drives us further along.

With this though, I can't resent her. I can't let her success make me grumble and push myself further. I need to be happy for her, and leave it at that.

I'm a selfish person.

Even though she deserves it far more than I do (as I'm the Queen of Procrastination), and I'm not in a position where I can succeed in the same way, I'm grumpy. We have the same dream, and she beat me to it. And the worst part is, she keeps saying how her success is going to help me when it's my time. Which is true, and helpful, and nice. But still annoying.

Damn you, Ali. Why ya gotta be awesome, and make me feel like a slacker?!

I guess this means I need to get off my ass and finish something, doesn't it?

Friday, October 29, 2010

We've all got our junk, and my junk is you.

There's a man in my life.

A special, sexy, funny, charming man.

We talk all the time, wrapped up in what each other has to say, and we never fight, and always agree. He cares about what I think, treats me like a princess, and never pressures me to sleep with him. He likes my brain better than my breasts, and doesn't let me get away with putting myself down.

Unfortunately, he's gay, and lives in California. I also have to share him with a half-dozen other women.

Chase, this blog's for you.